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June 18, 2012

This is My Desire

Yesterday in church our Pastor gave a real challenging message. It was about maintaining our desire for God. He shared how it can be so easy to let the "stuff" of this world take away from the time that we need to spend with God. We have so many "things" at our fingertips which aren't necessarily bad in themselves, but they can eat up the time and energy that we should be spending with our Heavenly Father.

 One thing that really got me thinking was when he asked what kind of a relationship we would have with our earthly father if we only spent a couple hours a week with him on Sunday morning. In order to develop a relationship with someone, we need to spend time with them, to get to know them. It is the same with God, to get to know Him we need to spend time communing with Him in prayer and reading His Word.

 This made me think of our own children and what happens every busy season on the farm. When we are in seeding or harvest mode, Mark is in the field from early morning to late night. If the kids see him during the day it is only for a few brief moments. There are some of our children who will go with Mark in the field because they like to be in the tractor. But for the ones who would rather be at home, it doesn't take too many days of Mark being gone all day before they want to spend time with him in the tractor. This isn't because they like to be in the field, it's because they miss their Daddy. And it has happened time and time again that as the busy seasons goes on and they don't see their Daddy but for a few minutes a day, that their desires to be with their Daddy becomes stronger than all the things they like to do when they are at home. They will choose to spend hours and hours in the tractor just to be with their Daddy. We always chuckle because by the end of the season Mark's cab is so full of kids it's comical!

 I compared this with my desire for God. Is my desire for Him so deep that when I haven't spent time with Him I just long to be with Him? So much that I will put aside all the things I love to do just to spend time talking to Him and getting to know Him more. I want to have a relationship like that with my Heavenly Father.

 Where is your desire today? Is it for God? Have you been spending time with the One Who wants a relationship with you? Do you desire Him so much that you can hardly wait until the next time you can commune with Him?

 Here is one of my favorite songs which tells of a deep longing and desire to spend time with the One Who loves me most.

June 8, 2012

Be Careful Little Eyes What You See

As I was washing out a bottle this morning I felt little eyes on me. I looked up to see Brooke staring intently at me. I wasn't doing anything exciting or out of the norm, just everyday life, but she was watching.

Watch...that's what children do. They watch and they learn. I like having my kids hang around me as they watch and learn. Many times, if I am not too much in a hurry, I will include them in my task or explain why I am doing what I am doing and the way that I am doing it.

But not only do they watch the tasks that I perform throughout the day, they also watch my attitude and my actions and reactions. This is what makes me really think. What do they see in me day in and day out. What are their little minds and hearts taking in? Pretty much every word I say and every action I make. I know it because I see and hear it in their words and actions. Both the good and the ugly. It's a wake up call when you see your child display and action that's less than lovely and you know that it is something that you have modeled to them.

I have a LOT of little eyes (and big ones too :) watching me day in and day out. From the moment I wake up till the moment I go to bed....I am being watched. And this morning as Brooke watched me with those childish, innocent little eyes I wondered if what she sees in me is something that I would want her to model. I know there I many times I fail throughout the day when I allow actions and words to come from me that are less than lovely. And that makes me sad....it really does. And that's why I continue to purpose to become a mom that I would be proud of my children modeling. Not pride in a sort of sinful way, but pride in knowing that I did the best that I could do, that I was the best that I could be.

Who's watching you today?

(and this is where I would ask Megan to take a cute little picture for me and insert it here :) I guess I am really going to have to get into taking pictures again!!!